On Uncertainty, Changes, and Following Dreams

I have been hesitant to share our plans on the blog lately. I’ve hinted at things, but laying out our next steps seemed too much like tempting fate. You see, after dealing with the military for three years, you learn that things change. Even things you thought were set in stone. Benefits, housing, deployments, future plans – everyone seems to say one thing, but then another thing happens. You read something in an order or on a website, but then find out it hasn’t been updated in 10 years and it’s completely wrong. You’ve been assured throughout your career that something will definitely happen, but then…it doesn’t. Especially lately, it seems like we are – let me put this carefully – not reaping the benefits we were told to expect from military life.

It’s been hard, even embarrassing sometimes, to plan our next steps, to feel confident enough to tell friends and family what we’re doing, and then have it all change the next minute. Also not great for my anxiety levels (intolerance of uncertainty is not an ideal trait for a military spouse). But now, things are finally in motion and I kind of want to shout it from the rooftops.

Tim is leaving active duty on May 15. He is going back to school, and I am looking for a job. We are moving to Eugene, Oregon.

Moving to the Pacific Northwest has always been our dream, but we thought it was years away. Leaving the military has given us the kick in the pants we needed to just do it. Tim has been accepted into University of Oregon for marine biology (he’s going to be a Duck!), and we are moving there in a couple of months. We are beyond excited.

Some rather large details are still up in the air. I don’t have a job yet. We don’t have an apartment yet. But, it’s all up to us, and that is a new and wonderful feeling. This is one of those exciting/scary/exhilarating/vomit-inducing experiences where you “take the leap and build your wings on the way down.” Whatever happens, we’re going to figure it out. We may be eating ramen noodles for the next four years, but we’ll be eating them together, in our own apartment, in our new town. Tim will be following his dream and I will be supporting him while following my own. We will finally be starting the life we imagined when we got married.

*Photos taken on my iphone on our honeymoon, when we decided we were definitely moving to the Pacific Northwest…someday.


12 thoughts on “On Uncertainty, Changes, and Following Dreams

  1. You might have included a Kleenex alert – it’s not cool to be tearing up at work! I am super excited for you both and am feeling a sudden urge to bake something delicious for your imminent return.

      • Not your fault, dear – I think this was your best post yet and I was just so happy to read it.
        I will gladly make you scones, and we can dust off the teapot and have a lovely chat about it all…

  2. yay for the west coast!!!! your presence will increase the awesomeness of the west coast by a power of 10, easily. so we may have failed to come visit in okinawa but i guarantee we’ll be on your doorstep in oregon. so happy for you, jenn. can’t wait to follow along on your jourey!

  3. Thoughtsicle: Since you are no longer moving to DC…we need to make a trip there anyway. I’ve always wanted to go! And I really really want to go to the National Zoo. Like a lot.

      • Well duh! Do you all know when you’re going to move everything out there? I’m happy to help with anything you need of course :)

        And you’ll also need to visit me…somewhere.

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